Sunday, June 14, 2009

For my mom..........!!!!!!!!

Dear Mummy,

Mom, you must be feeling that what made me write this letter to you on this simple day. Yes I will call it simple day because there is nothing very important happening or going to happen in these days, but, I feel I don't want to wait for any such occasion to write to you and say what all I aways wanted to tell you. In fact, today I want to say all what I did not say when I was suppose to say it, sometimes because I did not understand the importance of what all you did for me and sometimes when I understood everything but had no words to appreciate you or just to say a "Thank you mummy !!" , mom sometimes I purposely did not say thanks because it required much much more then just a THANKS .

Sometimes it was not easy to understand what you wanted to explain, what all you wanted me to understand so that I could lead a better life than what I had but, may be it was because I was too young to understand. But, I appreciate you for each and everything you did for me this includes the most important and I should say the most precious thing you did for me and that is you were not only my mom but my dearest and closest friend I ever had in my entire life till now. You treated my like a friend and advised me like a mother and that's the only reason why I am so successful and most important I am so happy in my life, yes I am happy and you know why, all because of those recent things that happened to me and the way you supported me in each and every tough situation in life which I think you must have understood by now and know the reason why I did not mention in this letter, Its only because when it is a past it has to be forgotten.

Well, this was something very recent. But, I still remember those small mischives that I use to do and make you angry but trust me mom today it really makes me feel laugh and feel so proud that I have such a loving and caring mom. Hey, do you remember I was so crazy about your cosmetic items when I was in my Kinder Garden. It was so difficult for you to find new places always and hide them from me, but still I was smart enough to find them.....hahaahahha !!!! You know mom why was I so crazy about your cosmetic items ? It was because I wanted to be like you, whenever I use to see you using them I use to feel that If I apply this even I will be like you, because I always wanted to be like you Mummy...!!!!!! never found anyone more beautiful and charming then you. For me my mom was most beautiful, charming and yes "very cute" this is what I keep telling you all the time (very cute) because when my eyes look at you is not only the outer beauty but also the inner beauty of yours, the affection and care that you keep showering on me till date and which is very very precious to me than any other thing on this planet.

I agree I was not always an obedient child and sometimes was too stubborn but, there is only one word that I have to say for this "SORRY", sorry for all what I did against your wish. I know I am trying to be very kind towards myself by just saying sorry for all those time when I hurt you but the reason for just saying sorry is that I do not want to repeat my mistakes what I did when I argued with you for a wrong reason. But, trust me mom there was never an intention to hurt you, whenever we had a difference of opinion I might have ignored your opinion and must have moved forward but there was always a guilt feeling later in my heart.

Mummy do you know what I still miss the most? I remember those days when you used to embrace me in your arms while returning back from school, those moments will never come in my life again . I wish I could be so small today also and can enjoy the same kind of love and affection from you in that particular way. But I guess life has to move on and some of these moments can never be repeated but can be only cherished for the entire life. But, mom as I grew older I got a lovely and most important is that I got a most reliable friend with whom I can share everything which bothered me in my life, and you gave me the most successful solutions for each and every complicated problem of my life.

I think this letter of mine is too short to express my feelings towards you but still I feel I am happy that I got a chance to tell you all what I wanted to tell you my dearest Mom. I know I am trying to be little selfish but there is one more and probably last wish of mine to you and that is keep loving me the same way you did till today and support me always for the rest of my life. Correct me whenever I am wrong but, always be with me, I need your support for each and everything that I do in my life and once again thanks for everything.

Your loving daughter,

Vidhi......